不明白

暗示的力量真的那么强大吗？

自从上次之后，我不停地对自己说，没有任何事情可以再让自己如此难过，这已是最糟的境况。既然我能挺过这一遭，那么将来所有的难过都相形见绌。我的心到过了一个低谷，就不可能再去同一个，是我自己不允许。——这也算人生的一种做作。

所以这次，我每每有那么点心悸的时候，一种压抑便自然生成，将所有情绪浇灭。我有些许不舍，一点心酸，但泪终久没流。

我不明白这是为何？我同样深爱着他们，他们是我生命中多么重要不能重复无可替代的音符，和我一起谱成了这一章。

有位朋友在离别赠言上说：18 months ago, I couldn't imagine meeting you... but we have formed a friendship that is beyond "place" and "space".

也许这就是原因。

曾经拥有就是幸福，朋友可以永远，而我也仍在自己的旅途上寻找另一个可以为我停留的幸福。

Some Like It Hot (for Jack Lemmon)

Happy Birthday

Present 1: From M, a pack of carton stickers
Present 2: Housemate S wrote "Happy Birthday" on the mirror in the bathroom and it is the biggest surprise ever when I saw it the moment I went into brush my teeth. Also a silver envelope is next to it. (Though it is one day ahead)
Present 3: Call from my father. He said his birthday is on 30th, so he thought mine is one 30th. I told him I thought his birthday is on 31st because mine is on 31st.
Present 4: Dinning out with S.
Present 5: The letter from housemate S: a tear-triggering letter, a Buddhist protection, a pair of earrings she has worn before
Present 6: Birthday wishes from Ben & Sal.
Present 7: a painting from Sal to come based on questions below:
- favorite color: navy blue
- favorite artist: Salvador Dali
- favorite painting: Melting clock
- favorite pastime: reading
- favorite animal: piggie
- favorite place:dessert/Bristol

Thanks for people above. You made me treasure my life.
There should always be a thanks for my dearest MOM. I love you. It's because of your bravery that I can have my life.

恍如一世

这是一个七日，重复反复颠覆

“你是我唱到喉咙沙哑 未完成的歌
何必再听过之后冷冷笑我”
—— XZQ《未完成的歌》

喜欢

喜欢上一个认识六小时的人；
喜欢上这个相见却不相识一年的人；
喜欢上这个将永不相见的人。

Auld Lang Syne for "The Apartment" (1960)

Should old acquaintance be forgot,
and never brought to mind ?
Should old acquaintance be forgot,
and old lang syne ?

CHORUS:
For auld lang syne, my dear,
for auld lang syne,
we'll take a cup of kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.

And surely you’ll buy your pint cup !
and surely I’ll buy mine !
And we'll take a cup o’ kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.

CHORUS

We two have run about the slopes,
and picked the daisies fine ;
But we’ve wandered many a weary foot,
since auld lang syne.

CHORUS

We two have paddled in the stream,
from morning sun till dine† ;
But seas between us broad have roared
since auld lang syne.

CHORUS

And there’s a hand my trusty friend !
And give us a hand o’ thine !
And we’ll take a right good-will draught,
for auld lang syne.

CHORUS

On

The theme of this upcoming week: waiting...

Now you see me, now you don't

Upcoming one

Last night I dreamt about you (maybe again). After all those pretensions we put on as if "I don't know you and you don't know me," we watched fireworks together, we had a party together, we laughed together, we watched a film together, and we sat side by side. Then, someone pushed me to you, but you ignored everything, looking into an unknown distance, saying:"yes, she is the one. We were together XX years ago."

"You know me?"
"Of course, I know you. You are the one XX years ago. And why are you following me?"
"..."

I cannot say anything, but look at you. I have been longing for a look at you, just a pure good look at you.

"We were together," are you saying
"We used to be in love," are you saying
"I used to love you," are you saying
"You did love me."

I know you don't like it, neither do I. But the only thing that can stop me
is just a pure look at you, if it is true that
"We used to be in love XX years ago."

除了灵魂我还能给你什么

我知道，我生就是为了来遇你的
这几万里的海洋
我鬼使神差一念之间地跨过了，而你也跨过了
我不宿命，也不需要宿命
我只遵循我心里的声音
她告诉我，是你
那个以灵魂与我相遇的人
那个让我敢舍生命以求的人是你

--《人间四月天》

Returns

- Have you heard of this when you were there? Have you ever seen one of his films?
Have you ever missed the feeling of an alienate country with alienate language? You
would always be fascinated by the people around you, would you? Will you...etc.
- ... (echoing)



If the cat returns, then...

Misconnection

Art and Loss Register

听老板说他们有NY的office。于是我要好好干，套套近乎，让我去NY。

走路去也可以的。

Anew

搬家后的第一天，一个生活从此在脚下走。
A life begins in transit, without me without you.

a-你

如果我是你，换若你是我

a-你

锦瑟华年，此情惘然

a-你

诗人的情人，并不如烟的往事。

a-你

乍暖还寒时，最难将息

你

谈笑风生，过眼烟云

你

行云流水，随心所欲