我也许笨，但我不是白痴

I'm easy, but not EASY easy.

me and my sixth sense

我能感觉X，只是时间不对

Howl's Moving Castle

鬼使神差地看了Howl's Moving Castle, 告诉朋友说很好，收到回信说那是他love的导演。当然我是因为不看动画片所以对 Miyazaki先生没感。回信中还说他最喜欢Spirited Away and Ocean Spray,我突然想起原来当天早上在我supervisor办公室也有这位先生的海报，supervisor很是激动地说这是他的favorite，打扫好了杂乱的办公室要将海报高挂！于是我结论到除了这电影和电影人本来是masterpiece的魅力不可挡之外，现在的男人更容易看anime并且被感动。朋友回信的最后问到某某天他过生日，是否可以光临。于是我跑遍了B城所有可能卖电影海报的地方，也没有找到和supervisor所有那张一样的海报 （他兴奋地说是从amazon上刚收获到的）。所以我放弃了，最后退而求其次地买了Spirited Away的DVD。其实这本不是明智之举，可能他已经拥有了，可能他的电脑RC后不能播放，可能了很多。。。终于最后送了出去。结果，

TMD，对方激动到把酒杯放下，双手捧着说，这是他的最爱但是自己却没有买，并且confirm欧洲的RC和此国一样。表情像一个小孩子一样，连续说谢谢近30秒，说的我都不好意思到像是我欠了谁的。介于人多眼杂，我觉得本人还是需要像幼稚园的阿姨般“温柔地”劝到，同学您可不可以不要再说了，我受不了了，都XX岁了还这么像个孩子。结果对方来一句，那怎么了我就是一个孩子。好吧，您孩子但我不是Miyakazi。

最近和朋友在cafe里遇见supervisor，突然友人说他很gay。我极力反驳到不会啊，他只是很真而已。

男人，分很多种，而我只愿分谁在你面前多一分真谁在你面前多装一次B。

reading list

其实不止一万遍地对自己承认说读理论过多绝对是要精神空虚的，于是我现在就空虚了，即使是面对着自己热爱的理论。如果那天我真成了某个理论的successor，我相信一定是non-place.

很可怕地发现从电影开始的第一个镜头我就告诉自己，这个establishing shot做作了，这个pov没有达到效果...最后的结论是这个导演的镜头感太平平，且都不说narrative了。（观Frozen River后第一感）

突然觉得自己离来的那个文化太遥远了，怀念用自己母语表达出来的思想、哲学、和牢骚。不知道non-place翻译出来是怎样的一个模式，如何的变异是无法想像的，就如同Yi-fu Tuan我都是花了10分钟才能确认这家伙还正是个中国人，还存活着，还继续影响着。

不过，还是请有心人给我个reading list吧，拯救拯救我理论化的灵魂！

Deadline is calling...

Sophia it's fine, and you will be fine.

I suddenly found myself so bad at doing critical summary, maybe it's just because I couldn't even understand what the hell these people are talking about. The flatness two-dimensinal haptic (Antonia Lant), and the Touch of Memory through body (Luara Marks)...OMG, give me a break...I think comparatively speaking, I would prefer Bruno. At least, she is (neo-)realism, and cinematic, and three-dimensional and emotional.

The Power of Suggestion

期待已久的见面是终于见了，然后整个人像是失去中心一般就点着头，然后在不是很适当的时候说出了自己的意见，然后慢慢反悔说还是同志们说的对，小的我“头一遭”。最后，在大家都能量脑力怠尽的时候，我们终于说出了“再见”和“保持联系”的字眼。尽管我从来喜欢看到事情的阴暗面，但是不得不说我们已经起步了，并且前途光明，如果我们坚持努力奋勇前进，并且我能不断自我鼓励。

M.P.: We are doing good.

S: Don't worry, Sophia, you are getting there.

Ball is rolling, for God's sake.

A Hobby

I think I should pick up that hobby again and go on taking pictures of the world and people.

Sometimes, this is the only way I keep my love for this life.

The Age of Stupid

What are we? Twelve!

Now, I totally understand why the older people grow, the less they are supposed to talk, because they are supposed to grow wiser. This is what I should now learn to do because there are so many f**king people bored and inclined to gossip. And they will never grow up, and never know how to respect others' privacy even they are much much older than me.

I'm done with this high school scenario. You are out of my book for good, no matter how good we used to be. This is what you get when you challenged me bottom line.

The Age of Stupid.

On my way to the First Chapter

For the sake of my own insanity, I decide to give the reduced partial outline as to save my life:

Chapter One: HC in DB

1.1 HV and B

- His.

- HV in DB

1.2 HV and Spa

- From B to S

- B in C

Then, please fill in the rest of the chapter...with your incredible imagination

Old similar scenario

The old similar scenario shouldn't work when I'm getting old.